opportunities

i should really be getting sum rest. but i've been on a roll writing these blogs. and i have mr. gorgeous to thank for that. he really is an inspiration. people always say that i seem interesting when they read my profile. u should see his. its amazing. and everytime i read his blogs it always makes me think. hes my "celebrity crush" lol. anyway, i read this blog and saw this video that he posted and it really made me think. i'm thinking about coppin the video he posted cuz its so amazing. anyway, he talks about missed opportunities. and that really made me think a lot. especially watching the video as well. anyway, people really don't realize how short life is. i think about it everyday. yet sometimes i wish that i would really take more risks. be less picky. i could not wake up tomorrow, or i could get hit by a bus, or get into an accident and not be here tomorrow. (knocks on wood). im jus sayin. that life is short. it seems like it goes by so quickly. when i think about it i cant believe 25 years have already passed by. so how much more quickly is another 25 years going to pass by? how many opportunities have i missed? we all dont take enough risks or chances in our lifetime. but why not? what do u have to lose. i've never been the type of girl to go up to a guy and just start talking to him. i dont think im bold enough to do that. i dont think i ever will be. even drunk loud susan wouldnt do it. but then that makes me think about how many opportunities i've missed. when i see a really cute guy i would never go up and talk to him. but i always encourage my friends to if they like someone. i tell them to take a chance, because most likely you'll never see that person again. i dont have a problem talking to someone that my friends like for them. i'll do it. yet when it comes to me, i just cant do it for myself. i think i'm scared of rejection. i guess guys do have it hard sometimes. but then this also comes to my other question. wat about when a guy asks me how i feel about him. i have a very hard time telling him. i have a hard time trusting people. especially guys. i always want to know how they feel about me, but when they ask me, i'm afraid to tell them. i always have my guard up. and i guess i dont want to tell them because i dont want to seem vulnerable. i don't want to lay it all out on the table. i want to keep them guessing. plus u should know already. if i didn't like u then i wouldnt be talking to u. so u must be doing something right. this guy... i want to ask him badly, how do u feel about me? where is this going? do u like me? do u even eventually want a serious relationship? but i think i'm afraid of scaring him off. but dont i deserve to get some answers after a month already? how about if something better comes along but i was too occupied w/ him and i missed out on something better. i'm not the type of girl to be juggling guys. if i like a guy, hes gonna be the one i'm talking to. thats it.