Update

i've had this blogger forever and i still don't know how to use it. i need to figure out how 2 customize it the way i want it to look. anyway, latest feelings.. confused, stressed, overwhelmed, shocked, surprised, adored, fun, ecstatic, busy, indecisive, annoyed, etc. the list just keeps going and going. school's been stressful as usual. but it keeps me busy which is good. which means i don't worry about the other stuff. wait scratch that. now that i think about it, i still worry. about a lot of things actually. but that's just me. here's a list of things i need to get done asap
SOC-weekly hw due sunday & exam on the 16th
CIS-labs due sunday
ENG-rough draft work plan was due 2day
FAS-3 exams & a paper due by the 19th
FIN-exam was today

u see wat i have to deal with. i found out recently that i got an A on my exam that i took last week. it made my day. literally. i dont remember the last time i was that ecstatic. The first test i got a C. so i was so happy about this one. it was an amazing feeling. obviously if u havent noticed i dont get A's often. cuz if i did i would brag about it more. lol. I found out i got an A on this other discussion i did for another class, 2 B's on on two papers i recently did. so far so good right? i need to keep it up. i cant wait for this semester to end. i get a break for a month. although i'll be taking a winter class. anyway, during winter break i have exactly a month to get back into shape. im so unhappy with my body right now. i think i've been gaining weight but its in all the wrong places. gross. i need to tone it, and i wanna be fit like i used to be. i actually miss going to the gym 4 days a week. i never liked going. but it really does help me fight my stress & takes my mind off of a lot of things. its a big motivation when i work out. i recently deleted my facebook. r u guys shocked? lol. i just got so annoyed at it. everyone was making a huge deal out of it. when all it is is posting a status update and leaving comments and responses on people's status updates. u guys might as well just get a twitter. and all the dam application invites and everything was overwhelming and getting on my nerves. facebook is too much for me. too complicated. im devoted to myspace. i like it way more cuz its not as complicated, u can listen to music, and u can customize ur page the way u want it. and even write on it. a part of me even wants to delete my mypsace. i'm getting too old for this networking crap. i kinda wanna jus keep a blog and twitter. if u think about it, how much time do we spend online? A LOT! we could be out doing something way more productive. people say they keep it to keep in touch w/ their friends. u guys have my email AND phone number. call me.

so time for the good stuff. so theres this guy. of course there is right.. isnt there always. im not gonna put too many details cuz i dont know where its going. hes not from here. thank god. cuz i hate the whole every1 knows every1 crap here in az. ive actually been talkin 2 him for a while. surprisingly. usually we're done after like a week, or two dates or watever. i usually call it quits cuz they always try 2 get in my pants after the 1st date. anyway, hes different. do u guys know where i always want to go on a first date? wats the perfect first date in my eyes? going to the fair. guess where he took me on our first date? to my fav. restaurant and to the fair. actually we've gone twice since i've known him. and he also took me to the game last weekend. i'm not really sure how i feel about him yet. its hard. because its also complicated. anyway, i'm not sure if i can take him seriously yet, cuz i feel like he doesnt take me seriously. u would think, u'd know how u feel about someone or know where its going after a month. tell him that. like i said theres more behind it, but i just dont feel like sharing. then again, i could be a hypocrit, bc a part of me doesn't know what i want anymore. a part of me does want a relationship. but another part of me doesn't know anymore. i live a really busy life during the week, i'm up late doing homework, and im trying really hard this semester to stay focused. and the guy that i'm with needs to understand that. he needs to understand that school is one of my top priorities. which doesn't mean that i wont make time for the right guy. but he needs to be understanding too. i got a lot more to talk about but i only got 4hrs of sleep last nite thx to studying and hw. so peace out and god bless for now.